you know what? today i amazingly woke up at the precise timing of the last sunrise of 2006. i was in my room, and i just layed in bed staring out the window and watched the sky lighten. it was a very melancholic moment for me (: to be frank i'm couldn't be happier to watch the last sunrise of 2006 from my room, i'd rather do that than watch the first sunrise of 2007 =1 i still can't believe that today is the last day of 2006, apart from february, december always seems to go past the fastest D: it's an emo time for me, because i feel like i want to forever cling on to very last moments of this year and not let go; it was the same feeling last year too. and because i said my body was cranky, i went back to sleep after that and only woke up at 1pm later @_@;;
tomorrow will suck. i will either spend the first few minutes of the new year either alone, or with stupid fucking people that i'm not interested in but my parents are forcing me to go socialise with them downstairs. and i'm really not ready to go back to school, i seriously rather continue working. tough job or easy job i don't care. i still prefer getting paid than go to school.
anyway on a sidenote i was thinking of creating another little place for myself (apart from my writing log). i'm not sure if it'll be a graphics journal or a translation journal or both, and also i'm not sure if i should do it on blogspot or livejournal. but it's definitely gonna be public (even if it gonna be on lj though i tend to like to friends lock certain stuff) so EVERYONE GO HIROSHIMABUMBAYEY! i was about to ask for you guys opinions, but i guess no one will comment/read anyway cause the contents won't interest anyone so what-thefuck-ever XD but durrr, definitely jrock centered. a plus for blogspot because i can change my layouts often, but a plus for lj because it's so user friendly and i love the commenting system and basically everything else besides the fact that i'm absolutely clueless on how to customise the layout (besides the colours) 8D
OHWAITOHWAIT!!! XDDD MIYAVI'S BACCKKKKKK FROM AMERICAAAAA~~~ OKAERI!!!
i'll post again later, maybe around midnight so whether it ends up as today's post or tomorrow's post it doesn't really matter. i'll write about some key events in 2006 which was memorable and along with the usual--new year resolutions XD they're gonna be fun to make okay!
20061224
a letter to santa:
Dear Santa,
being the smart ol' (fat)ass you are I know you know what I want for Christmas. Please gimme or else I'll vandalise your sleigh and shoot all ya stuupid flyin' reindeers! However I know I have not been good, so I've come up with some alternatives that you can choose from, just in case. Here, this is a list of Jrockers that I've come up with to assist you if you ever wish to kidnap them for me.
1) the GazettE, but preferably *coughthebassistcough*. (if you kidnap him alone, he would own the rest so that will be enough, do not bother to continue reading down the list.) 2) Miyavi, but he's currently busy working in America so we might not want to disturb him. 3) An Cafe, preferably Miku and Kanon because they're annoyingly NYAPPY. 4) Alice Nine, preferably Hiroto but I think that Shou and Tora might want to tag along. 5) bis, preferably Tsukasa but Shunsuke, Maru and Seika might come because they're worried about that poor little guy. (when i say little it means about 147cm) 6) Sadie, preferably Tsurugi but the rest are fine too. 7) 12012, preferably Wataru please. 8) LM.C, preferably Maya but then we would need to bring Miyavi along also for a reunion. 9) 176biz, Dolly, KuRt, Luvie, SCREW, Shoujo Lolita23q, Vidoll, Viored, Wizard and UnsraW (please bear in mind that if you choose this option they would all have to come together in a package), because they would make a good Christmas session band together and because I'm greedy. GOOD MUSIC! 10) All of the above (please please please please please x100000 !!!)
as for bribes, to show my sincerity I will bake you reita-shaped cookies though I can't cook for nuts.
i am awesome like that, eating ice cream at 2:30AM 8D
i hope the late night ice cream won't make my tummy fat, but on the flip side, i DO want it to make my butt fat. if dad finds out about the ice cream, he'll yell. but blame it on insomnia, i can't sleep even after 3am when i should suppose to. maybe it's because i have a wierd thing about sleeping on my sides. i can not bloody fall sleep on my back! ever since i pierced my ears i have been careful not to sleep on my sides till it heals because i'm afraid i might pull off my earring when i sleep like the last time and i don't wanna lose my vision again; i'm paranoid like that. and yes, it still hurts even if i brush it against my pillow so it won't be a good idea x_x;;
on a happier note, I'VE FOUND THE PERFECT GIFT FOR REITA! XD but since i'm going to be working on xmas eve and xmas nights, and i still haven't gotten christmas letters sent out along with other things i haven't done, i shall wait till next may to send it to him for his birthday instead of a christmas present (: i'll have plenty of time to plan and look for the perfect one. oh i haven't said what's the perfect gift yet XD ima get him a ZIPPO LIGHTER! *feels uber proud* i wanted to get him a ring or necklace or bracelet or any form of accessory for him at first but.. iono. i don't usually buy gifts for people and i suck at choosing gifts in the first place so yeah. but i've always wanted to get him something that he'll use often and won't throw away, and i wanted something special that he would really like and i think this gift fits perfectly! (: not that i'm encouraging him to smoke, but still a zippo lighter would last forever cause you can get it refilled! i really want to get him a DEAL DESIGN zippo cause i know he'll surely like it but it's a hassle to order it and though they didn't state the price im positive that it's very expensive so i don't think it'll work out. but i have until may to find him one with the perfect design and then ship it over to japan to him so i'll take my time to hunt for it! i REALLY hope he'll like it, and that he'll remember that it's from me whenever he takes it out to use :3 un un! ^_^ actually i myself have rather been attracted to zippos too, though i don't smoke. maybe i should start a collection, just like kai. they are pretty fly (:
andandand i recently dreamt that reita held my hand! i remember we were walking in this place that looks suspiciously like a hotel lobby (but i can't say for sure) and all of a sudden he took my hand in his! his arms were really fit (strong) and veiny as usual (he has the nicest arms ever!) and his palms were rough like i would expect it to be, but surprisingly when he had his held my hand he was so gentle *_* he didn't say much to me but my hand being enveloped in his was just.. *swoons~* fucking sweetheart! i was surprised at first but soon i felt all warm and fuzzy inside just being next to him :3 and then so i clinged onto his arm and pulled him closer to me and continued walking like that till he mysteriously disappeared. i really want the dream back, though it's just a simple gesture it felt so REAL then T-T *watery eyes* now it all feels so distant.. (i need to stop being so sappy! *hits self*)
oh yes. i've recently been attracted to Aki's blog {HERE}. he's the bassist from Sadie (the indie jrock band that i've fallen in love with recently) and what i really like about his blog is that it's so mysterious. it's written in japanese first, then translated in english so don't worry about not being able to read it. he often writes really short entries, like ONE SENTENCES/LINED?! i am really intrigued at his entries. seldom do jrockers write like that in their blogs seriously. my favourite entry would be the one that says 'if you want white, i'll look for black' (: although my fave member is tsurugi, i just cannot help but be attracted to mysterious people/things like that. i know beatrice hates me for it XD
ah, and i made icons! teasers:
more HERE if you're interested in taking a look (: there's a total of 12.
the hunt for reita's zippo will now commence! yes now! even if it's 3.15am i don't care. hmm, which place should i start looking for zippo lighters at first? o_o gah i really wanna get my hands on the deal design one.. i wonder if you can even get something engraved on the casings? would be really damn cool. reita wait for me! 8D gosh suddenly may sounds like a really long time away.. D:
20061208
random: reita joined the football club in grade 4 and is very stubborn, ha 8D
i sprained my back during training today O_O but i'll be okay, thanks to the people who showed concern in school. i don't know why but i found it wierd. wierd as in.. not used to it? i don't know, i'm a sucker for people who show that they care and that they give a damn. i don't get hurt physically often to start with, and if i really am not alright (whether physically or not), it usually doesn't happen in front of people other than myself so... ^__^ i hope i'll be alright soon, i have to work!!! aah i still can't bend my back, and sitting can be quite tiring after a while and there's a slight discomfort in my lower right back, bah so i'd rather stand or lie down. hmm, coach let me bring back this.. thing that supposedly gives out heat waves to cure my back, i just have to lie under it for 15 mins 3 times a day. it really gets hot after 15mins. ooh burning x_x;;
reita will make everything alright anyway (: i am such a sucker for the one with the noseband. haha please lets not get me started on declaring my love for this guy because i won't know how to stopppppp~ :3
currently it's a jrock indie bands boom for me. (<--holy crap i sound like bis after all that translating! x_x) they always say indie bands don't get much love don't they. well i'm not one who really go searches or look up for these stuff, i usually just WAIT for them to catch my attention XD ah but there are some treasures out there waiting to be discovered. just to name a few (bah crap my jrock list just expanded itself again! and still counting) there're bands like Vidoll, SCREW, Sadie, Shoujo Lolita23q, 176biz, Viored, Dolly, Luvie, Wizard and KuRt etc. but that doesn't mean i've moved away from the major bands, but i really hope to see these indie bands grow, i must say some has a lot of potential. gah but it's really hard to find their stuff and media as they are indies afterall and not that well known @___@;; I WILL SHARE JROCK INDIE GOODNESS BAYBEHHH!!! 8D but i'm not gonna put up vids from all of the above bands, it'd be too much XD
Sadie. you HAVE TO click to see this. EMPHASIS. Sadie is a great band with great music, easily zooming up to my favourites *_*
Luvie
176biz
KuRt
i will find my way to diamond dust ktv! i should work there next year ohohoho! 8D argh the hell. i need to lie down.
20061201
no shit.
you wouldn't believe what happened to me today O_O
I went like, temporarily blind for about a span of 5 mins. no i think more than that, because that happened twice. no figurative speech in here, i'm talking about literally blind. it wasn't a black out because i didn't collapse though i felt like i was going to.
i was shit scared. shit. scared. damn. right. yoooo.
the whole thing started when my earrings accidentally got pulled out when i was sleeping, and it hurt and bled a bit, so i got up and went to the toilet to try and hook my earring back. i only managed to poke it through the hole halfway, and then i started getting dizzy, and my vision blurred and flickered like a tv screen. at that point of time i was like partially blind, but i have that often whenever i sit down too long at one place and it normally goes away after a few seconds. so i fumbled my way back into my room and took off my earring but on my way out i felt so dizzy that i had to lean against a wall to stop myself from losing my balance and collapsing. but instead, because i was so thrown off balance my body weight was shifting from side to side against my will so i ended up knocking my head against the wall a few times. i don't know how that happened but yes it did.
taking the chance while i still had part of my vision (which has already been discoloured and distorted and not to mention filled with wierd patches and holes and just.. like a disfunctional tv screen), i found my way to the kitchen to pour myself a glass of water to drink, hoping that it would make things better. i did everything like half-blind, (my dad came back and told me that i had spilled water over the kitchen table top) and so when i had finished pouring the water, i lost all my vision. YES ALLLL. BLANK. DARK. NOTHING. the bridge of my nose was throbbing, my head dizzy, and i couldn't see even though my eyes were wide open. i drank the water, waited, didn't help. i started to panick and freak out, cause i was scared that i might just lose my vision forever and become blind because it has been a few minutes into the whole thing already and nothing was turning better! i was frantic and everything i started to grope my way around the kitchen, feeling the doorframe, the walls, the corners, everything! but i was too busy chartering energy into finding my way around and to keep myself standing and not collapsing that i didn't notice that time passed. i had NO CLUE where i was in the house or where i was going though i was feeling things i had no idea to walk left or right nothing gave me a clue to where i was! it was about five minutes or so already, (maybe more) and all i thought about was getting to the couch to rest and getting to the phone to call my dad to come home because i couldn't FRICKEN see! like ZOMFG WTF IS HAPPENING!?
then i touched what seemed like my dining table chair and thought, okay i'm going somewhere (because i kept walking) but then i tugged on some cloth and my hands swiped through what felt like photoframes and i thought 'no! this is the fricken piano! all this time i was going nowhere i'm still at the same place near the kitchen!' i was so frustrated i was about to cry, i leaned my head against a wall where i tried to steady myself. i never felt so desperate and helpless (there was no one in the house) before. my vision was still black, no nothing, but in the second where it started to come back and i could make out the grey foggy shape of the couch and the tv, i dashed across the hall and laid on the sofa for a few minutes (okay so maybe it was longer than 5 mins) till my vision slowly came back. i was hot and.. i don't know, scared like shit. losing my sight was no joke, i don't wanna know what it's like to be blind. was rather traumatised later on, and i called kelly up to meet.
then when i met kelly, we went to the expo. we were at expo mrt station and i told her to help me wear my earring cause i had trouble seeing and putting it back on and so she helped me (had a hard time stuffing it through because there was a bloodclot) but strangely again! the minute she got the earring through the hole, i could feel the same dizziness coming back, and YES, i went like half-blind AGAIN. WTF??? then i couldn't stable myself and i went over to the nearest pillar to lean on, but things weren't better and i totally lost my vision again! kelly was almost freaking out cause she had no idea what to do, there i was looking all normal, maybe just slightly dazed but in actual fact i really couldn't see anything! i couldn't hear much either her voice was muffled and stuff and the bridge of my nose was throbbing like whoa, but i wasn't so scared this time because i knew kelly was with me. i think i leaned there for about, i don't know how long, then kelly held my arm and brought me into the expo where there was air-con and it was cooler. on my way in i regained part of my vision back, but at one point in time i felt like my legs were so weak and so dizzy that i wanted to collapse there and then. my vision slowly came back to me as we walked around a bit longer, but damn i was COLD. kelly told me to feel her arm--it was warm--and to feel mine, which felt like, a dead kind of cold. i had no idea i was breaking out in cold sweat and stuff.
it's not funny to lose your vision k. it's different from closing your eyes. it was like... i don't know i was desperate cause i had my eyes were open but i couldn't see no friggin' shit. i was freaked out, and definitely, DEFINITELY SCARED. at one point i was positive that i could be blind forever and... it's much much more terrorising than what it sounds like.
yeh this was one/two shit experience.
&!VODKA&IRONY
{ C }
the kind of girl who mopes around about stuff ALOT & somedays on mute mode
&!SLIP'N'SLIDE
A LEFT-HANDER WHO FEEDS ON JROCK :D
Is a caffeine addict, & doesn't mind giving up talking for good.
With not much self-confidence to start with, her ugly teeth upset her a lot but she plans to do nothing about it. Cheap thrills include rainy days, graphic designing, writing & a little dosage of her jrock darlings.
Can conjure up some really good shit in her mind sometimes, but has problems putting them onto paper and into reality.
Overall an average kid who's neither here nor there in everything she does, & gets bothered by it sometimes. Has trouble finding her direction in life.
Mostly negative and wishes to be more apathetic. Currently finding a way to start a new life in Japan, with a different name.
Still likes to talk to inanimate things like her stuffed penguin.
